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I Forgive You...is what I told my old self today

2011-12-19T14:59:00.000-05:00

Written under pineal stimulation and divine inspiration...

While taking a hot shower I began to stretch my back. I started with my lower back and worked my way up.Seemed like a deep back stretch, but nothing impressive. I in the very next second, I decided I would stretch as deep as I could and this time began with my neck. I closed my eyes and began to imagine a caterpillar shedding its cocoon. What was interesting about this process was that, from my neck to my shoulder are was one shell. Then from my shoulders to my mid-back was yet another cocoon. Finally, from my lower back to the tip of my tail bone was the final cocoon. *Note: I was stretching VERY deep and maintaining balance by moving slowly and stretching each side equally as deep. Well as I shed each cocoon they fell to the shower floor. And, because it was a life size version it did not move with the running water. Still with my eyes CLOSED, I turned around and looked at my "old self". It was an amazing experience. It was not in the shape of a body, but in the shape of several open, yet interconnected cocoons that spanned the length of my spine. They were transparent, but had a brownish "dead cocoon shell" tint to them.

CUE SONG: I Forgive You by: Rachelle Ferrell

What makes this experience phenomenal and worth writing about is what was also going on. Right before I began stretching I was inspired to play the song above (I forgive you, Rachelle Ferrell). As I turned to look at my old self on the shower floor I began to FORGIVE HER. It was an incredible thing. Eyes closed during the entire experience I began to "look" at who she was. I realized that not only do I forgive things from 15 years ago, I forgive the self hatred you thought right before you got in the shower. I forgive you for being scared, lazy, confused, angry, bitchy, uninspired, unmotivated and for all the times you gave up. I "totally completely" forgive you. "I just want to be whole again, I want to be free again, want to be me again, I just want to heal" chill. Lindsey, "it doesn't really matter what you did anymore. It doesn't really matter what you did it for, or who you did it to. I FORGIVE YOU."

I walked out of that shower feeling brand new & guess what? I am brand new. "I no longer want to hold on, to that which doesn't make me strong."

I was inspired to share this experience with you all. I pray that it brings light in whatever way you need it!

Peace,
Lindsey

FCUK da POLICE-explained...

2011-11-30T11:21:00.001-05:00

OK, many of you who follow me on Facebook have seen my "fuck the police" protest signs and/or posts. I thought it deserved an explanation so that EVERYONE was clear on MY stance!!!

As I begin to write my explanation, I am remembering/recalling how much racial injustice flows through the United States "Justice" system-starting with the Police..

Racism has been a staple of Policing since its origin.

1625-The Dutch West India Company introduced slavery to New York (known then as New Netherland) with the importation of eleven black slaves. http://www.slaveryinamerica.org/geography/slave_laws_NY.htm
1626-In 1626, the New York City Sheriff's Office was founded. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Law_enforcement_in_the_United_States

As the saying a picture speaks 1,000 words goes, here is the next level of my explanation:
South Carolina Slave Patrol

notice the flag in the 5yr old boys hand.

When I say "Fuck da Police" I am not only referencing the history of police brutality/racial profiling in our country, but I am also speaking about the present race relations between Black Americans and Police Officers throughout this country..

Now-what prompted me to clarify my position (as I am not often led to justify my opinion), was a recent encounter I had with a (white american) police officer in a small city outside of Florence, SC. He appeared (unsolicited) in full uniform and offered random acts of kindness to everyone in my (all black american) party. I remember my initial feelings of concern for our safety, upon his arrival. I also remember my relief and surprise of his generosity. I thanked him emphatically and felt compelled to give details of my position that remains the same.

FUCK EVERY POLICE OFFICER that supports injustice (actively or passively)!

Thank God there are kind PEOPLE (race, age, gender) in this world!

find the JOY!

2011-11-11T09:49:00.001-05:00

Are you really maximizing your life experience?! None of us want to look over our lives and say, "I made it through." We really want to say we have enjoyed our experience. We want to celebrate our lives.
The truth is: we have the ability to do this every second of our lives. In every moment we have the ability to find the joy, love, peace, lesson, etc.
Love your life and look for the joy in every experience!!!

the CURE for fear, worry, & doubt...

2011-11-09T07:30:00.002-05:00

If you have reached this blog as a result of my inspiration hotline (titled) The Golden Brown Fine Line (919)PAP-ION1 (919)727-4661, then you probably heard the excitement in my voice... I am excited write this post because so many people (including myself) have battled the three nemesis for many years, making very little ground...
You see, the ONLY enemies we have in the universe are Fear, Worry, and Doubt. That's it! People are NOT your enemy. NO boogey man, vampire, goblin, supervisor, traffic cop, bills, etc. are your enemies (although some of those may feel like it-but neg. feelings/perceptions fall under worry) The truly yucky thing about all three of these enemies, is that WARNING: they are contagious! It is possible that you could have none but being raised by a scary/panicky mom caused you to catch fear. If your friends are super pessimistic, then you probably caught doubt. If you can't even remember why you worry so much, I am certain if you take a look at the people closest to you in life-one of them is also a worry-er...

Our only enemies are Fear, Worry, and Doubt.

Well the cure for all three of these enemies is LOVE.

As it relates to ourselves, we must express love towards our self in one way or another to annihilate the three foes. I vote that we take one at a time to better organize our thoughts and understand how to cure each one.. Anyone disagree??? (it's a blog-I can't HEAR you, so I will assume my plan is correct :)

Let's take a look at them in order of progression:

Worry: is a repetitive negative self talk. Negative self talk clearly takes you further away from your purpose (it sure doesn't lead you to it). The repetitive nature of worry begins to form conclusions about your reality. worry leads to...

Doubt: is a verb and it means to be uncertain or to distrust-ouch! Walking through life distrusting takes lots of negative energy. It's funny that I used the act of walking. When we walk, we don't distrust that the earth will be under our feet in every step we take. Could you imagine the mental anguish that would accompany walking if we did think that way? Well that same anguish is what you exert, when you "walk" in doubt.
doubt leads to...

Fear: is a distressing emotion aroused by impending danger-yikes! Fear is crippling. It has the ability to stop the strongest army of creatures dead in their tracks. Fear is deadly... Fear is illusive and often times tries to disguise itself as many other things. Calling fear anything but what it truly is- is inaccurate and cruel. Accuracy is necessary to truly understand. This thing called fear has its roots in childhood experiences, so you may have to go pretty far back to truly get an accurate picture of what you are battling. Compassion also yields to understanding. You are not lazy-you are afraid. You are not a procrastinator-you are afraid.

LOVE expressed to YOURSELF is the cure!

worry can be cured by simple belief in yourself & your abilities
believe that you can do it
believe that you can have it
believe that only good happens to YOU

doubt can be cured by having faith in yourself & your abilities
faith requires commitment
because doubt is a verb your faith must be active as well
faith is confidence & trust
walk through life with confidence
trust that all is ALWAYS well in YOUR life

fear can be cured by LOVE in ACTION!
do the thing that you used to be afraid of- it will expose the lies
express compassion towards yourself and take baby steps
accurately address your mental pictures & just do it!

What am I doing wrong?

2011-08-03T10:35:00.003-04:00

This would first require a belief in right vs. wrong, or atleast the existence of the two. If you believe you are where you are supposed to be, then the answer to the question would be, "nothing".
Other schools of thought would consider the use of the word "wrong". The fact that one posed the question would denote one's belief in wrong & their own wrong doing. If thoughts are things, then thsoe answer would be, "Thinking you are wrong is what you are doing wrong."
Some would say, "try something different." Others might say, "persistence is the key."
I say, "The fact that you asked the question means you are looking for something. Because you are one with the universe, it could be viewed as the Universe telling you something. But maybe it's not what you think. Maybe you didn't ask the right question. The universe could be telling you how right on you are. There could be a stream of creativity fighting to get through & your question is the catalyst.
Seek & you will find. But, don't allow fear or pain to cause you to seek the wrong thing... Always look for truth through the eyes of love.
More specifically, ALWAYS LOOK AT YOURSELF THROUGH THE EYES OF LOVE!
So to re-phrase the question:
Is there anything I need to do differently?
Drink a glass of water (to lubricate your brain), take deep breathes until all panic is gone, then listen with your heart."

FUCKin BLISS!

2011-07-05T14:55:00.002-04:00

Have you ever given away too small/too big clothes?

Have you ever cleaned out your car? (threw away the receipts, straw wrappers & that old french fry under the seat)

Have you ever gotten a great haircut?

Have you ever unclogged a backed up sink?

IF you answered YES to any of the following statements, then you:

COMPLETELY UNDERSTAND THIS POST!

Don't you feel AMAZING when you do one of the above listed items?!?!

BLISS

If you:

-gave away too small/too big clothes: Imagine the clothes calling you a hipocrite for not keeping them!

-cleaned out your car: Imagine the french fry cursing you out(go ahead an imagine this shit) because you had the nerve to throw his krusty ass in the trash can!

-had a great hair cut: Imagine the loose hair on the floor talkin shit about how they don't need YOU!

-unclogged a sink: Imagine the goop in the drain starting a website & creating flyers to attempt to damage your cridibility?!

Isn't this THE MOST asinine shit you have ever imagined in your life?! EXACTLY!!!

Well that is what happens when you (Matthew 7:6) throw your pearls to swine...

onk, onk pig & keep it moving...les, I strike you with my spiritual rock & SPLIT your SHIT!

NOW, BACK TO THE BLISS OF A CLEAN LIFE!!!

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2011-06-28T17:50:00.000-04:00

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Paris-Day 6

2011-05-03T17:36:00.000-04:00

Chez Alain-the amazing venue where I performed

About an hour after the show ended upstairs, people still hung out at the downstairs bar. (we had FUN)

The AMAZING team of women that put this show together..And just think, It all started with twitter

Alain- the restaurant/bar owner

Performance pics will come later...

Paris- Day5

2011-05-03T17:20:00.000-04:00

It was a pleasure and an honor to sing in the Parisian debut of the Paul Leavitt Requiem

The view from the front doors of the church after the performance in St. Sulpice

Madonna & child (aka) Auset & Horus

The fountain in the square in front of the church

St. Sulpice

My Parisian fans (now friends) invited me to meet more friends after the show..Wonderful People!

Amsterdam- Day 3/4

2011-05-03T17:02:00.000-04:00

Paris Train Station

Amsterdam

Standing in a clog

I AM Int'l

Paris-Day2

2011-05-03T16:50:00.000-04:00

I know it has taken me forever to post...but wow-there was so much to DO! I will let the pictures speak for themselves!

Lourve

The Softest Cheese Pizza

Opera National de Paris

One of my favorite places on the planet..It never disappoints:

The Ritz Carlton

An American in PARIS! (day1)

2011-04-26T09:32:00.010-04:00

So I know there are so many of you have emailed me asking about pictures..I don't have much time to write because I am off to see more of this beautiful city... So many pieces of Paris remind me of both New Orleans and Washington, DC. You will get brief bullet point descriptions....

here we go!

These are 3of my very handsome tour guides. They are such gentlemen and they are the English speakers of my host family in Paris! Thank goodness for these fellas!

There is really NICE grafitti at this subway station. I couldn't fit it all in before the train arrived. But what I did get is the community garden along the subway route.. Fresh Fruits & veggies are all along the fench..

ME (see the Arc) L'Arc de Triomphe(sp)

I was so proud to see Hip-Hop culture as such a huge part of the Parisian experience. They were breakdancing like true Pro's.... Shout Out to al the B-boy & B-Girls..This picture is for YOU!

B-boys killen em...I took out my camera too late. I missed all the best tricks..The guy at the beginning of the video(with the helmet on) slid into the circle on his head!

Yes, we are all consumers..I'm no different..This picture is for all my GIRLZ!

Me sitting on a bench right outside a sidewalk cafe. They are all over the place. I was just super excited to BE there!

NOT a postcard...I was standing in the middle of the street to get this one!

Say WHAT?!?! that is me..can you see?

Breath(e)-taking! (this picture I took for my Mommy)

This is the tunnel where Lady Di was killed. Rest in Peace Princess Diana!

The Lourve(by night) this picture is for Carlita!

i've got ring tones biotch!

2011-03-23T21:15:00.000-04:00

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Don't Sweeat the Technique...(remember)All is Well!

2011-03-15T22:04:00.000-04:00

I was inspired to offer a few words of encouragement.. I know many people pursuing goals that seem really big and sometime can appear as an impossible task....keep pushing with a certainty that ALL IS WELL!

You are doing exactly what you should be doing.

You are experiencing what you should experience.

You are exactly where you should be.

Just last week, I hit a mental/emotional wall. Long distance runners often talk of "hitting the wall".

"Such fatigue can become seriously debilitating; in cycling, exhaustion can reach the point where the cyclist is unable to stand without the support provided by the bicycle. Symptoms of depletion include general weakness, fatigue, and manifestations of hypoglycemia, such as dizziness and even hallucinations. This dangerous condition will not be relieved by brief periods of rest."(wikipedia)

Last week I:

I felt like things should be different then what they are. -hallucination
I really wanted to quit. -weakness
I was tired of fitting this seemingly never ending fight. -fatigue

I am here to remind you that most often the "HOW" is not our concern. All you are expected to do is BE. Be the best that you were created to be and the "HOW" will take care of itself. You see, we often get caught up in strategic planning, budgeting, forecasting, etc. I am not saying that these tools are not helpful, but what I am saying is keep your eyes open! My best friend uses the term "stay sober" as a reminder to always look for miracles in all that you do. DO not get so caught up in the circumstances that you get distracted from your true self.

LOVE is the way! Follow your own path, do not get distracted by what others are doing around you! It is OK if you have yet to discover all the details of your mission. It will be revealed to you as long as your mind is still enough to receive the message.

Ask for whatever you need or desire, listen, love, breathe & remember not to sweat the technique!

Do Everything...NOW!

2011-02-25T11:57:00.000-05:00

I had a talk with an ammazing Director, Actor, Writer, Photographer friend of mine and this is what I said...(in a nutshell)

don't walk, but run, skip, fly in the direction of your destiny..
there is no RIGHT TIME to BE. I know your brain is conditioned to believe that there is a right and wrong time

Do everything right NOW! do it!

if you want to get married...DO IT
if you wanna jump out of a plane....DO IT!
if you want to learn to paint...DO IT!
if you want a baby, have one now!

this is your life we are talking about..We are not talking about you waiting your turn in line. We are not talking about a dress rehearsal. We are not talking about you waiting for the right opportunity and the right time...
DO IT NOW!

NOW is the RIGHT TIME! it's the only time.. The past no longer exists and the future is not even here yet, so the ONLY time is right now.. There is power in NOW. That's really what that statement is about. The only power is right now, your current breathe, your eyes scanning this computer screen. There is untapped power inside of you waiting for you to do it now!

The creator said you were great before you were born, so really what are YOU waiting on? Honestly, just DO IT! DO IT NOW!

Cleaning House!

2011-02-23T13:35:00.000-05:00

I have been inspired for the last few days to make major changes. Actually, the changes really aren't major because I have been wanting to make them for some time now. However, after much introspection I have been able to uncover more layers and ultimately walk closer to personal enlightenment.
This is not a literal house cleaning task..or maybe for YOU, it is...
This is truly a cleaning of your personal energy field. Go to http://www.chakrahealing.com/ and take the free test! Then report back and lets talk about cleaning...OR do your own research and find a way to balance, clear, or open your chakras...

*You may be suprised to hear my chakra report...All chakras are strong BUT my 3rd Chakra is CLOSED!

I need to open my solar plexus..You would think that a person who has been chosed by the career that choose me would have a strong the 3rd Chakra.

Here is a little message from a great source of chakra information:
http://www.btinternet.com/~seamaid/SacredTruthc3.htm

Sacred Truth of the Third Chakra

The Sacred Truth of the third chakra is ~Honor One-self~. The energies that come together in this chakra have but one spiritual goal; to help us mature in our self understanding - the relationship we have with others, and where we stand on our own and take care of ourselves. The spiritual quality is self-respect. We have all faced or will face an experience that reveals to us our own internal strengths and weaknesses as separate from the influence of our elders. The spiritual quality inherent in the third chakra compels us to create an identity apart from our tribal self.

Location

The solar plexus

Energy connection to the emotional mental body:

The third chakra, often called the solar plexus, is our personal power centre, the magnetic core of the personality and ego.

to read more about the 3rd chakra, click http://www.btinternet.com/~seamaid/SacredTruthc3.htm

Right Ones Ft. Bada Bing Bada Blusa from 78Special:The Mixtape

2011-02-15T09:33:00.001-05:00

Right Ones Ft. Bada Bing Bada Blusa from 78Special:The Mixtape

2011-02-15T09:33:00.000-05:00

on the day of love...

2011-02-14T21:15:00.000-05:00

Be courageous! I was planning to write about the large number of men that I have encountered in my travels that lack courage, but I AM NEVER A MALE BASHER..

I will simply say BE Courageous. Parents, teach your children to ALWAYS rise from the ashes. Teach them not to allow their pain or past hurt to prevent them from reaching and RISING!

Little girls have been taught several emotional lessons that little boys simply have not been privy to in this Western culture. All children should be taught that their feelings are valid. All children should know that LOVE always finds a way. Little girls get hurt, they are consoled, and then encouraged to continue on because there are "more fish in the sea." Little boys are taught to repress their feelings and they become men who move through the world being governed by their "pain bodies."

I have felt so much compassion as I have observed so many adults (myself included) function in their pain. Today, I was sadly inspired to speak out against the lack of love in our society. Unfortunately, its cancerous ways have spread throughout this Western culture with no respect to race, gender, or socio-economic status.

PARENTS always remember; children learn what they live.....

Children Learn What They Live

By Dorothy Law Nolte, Ph.D.

If children live with criticism, they learn to condemn.

If children live with hostility, they learn to fight.

If children live with fear, they learn to be apprehensive.

If children live with pity, they learn to feel sorry for themselves.

If children live with ridicule, they learn to feel shy.

If children live with jealousy, they learn to feel envy.

If children live with shame, they learn to feel guilty.

If children live with encouragement, they learn confidence.

If children live with tolerance, they learn patience.

If children live with praise, they learn appreciation.

If children live with acceptance, they learn to love.

If children live with approval, they learn to like themselves.

If children live with recognition, they learn it is good to have a goal.

If children live with sharing, they learn generosity.

If children live with honesty, they learn truthfulness.

If children live with fairness, they learn justice.

If children live with kindness and consideration, they learn respect.

If children live with security, they learn to have faith in themselves and in those about them.

If children live with friendliness, they learn the world is a nice place in which to live.

What a Difference a DAY makes...

2011-01-31T13:41:00.001-05:00

I wet and conditioned my hair in the shower(co-wash). I then applied a leave in conditioner.. BUT this time, I saturated the hair with water and my creamy leave in conditioner.. Mt hair had so much product its amazing.. I sat under the dryer and diffused after to add volume and "quick dry" a few still damp spots..

I'm off to run errands...

I spent the entire morning bonding with my hair and I really love her.. She (my hair), is really amazing. Although we are not there yet, I am enjoying the ride.....

Natural Hair Chronicles 1-30-11

2011-01-30T19:01:00.000-05:00

So my hair has been natural for a few years now.... That means I have not had any chemical overhauls (relaxers) for many years on my treasured mane. I feel like I am meeting my best friend from 1st grade after many years...because........ Although, I am a NATURAL WOMAN. I have worn wigs, weaves, blow-dried straight, roller set, and everything ELSE to my hurr...

I recently decided to wear it in its natural state and lets just say....uh...not so successful!

Don't get me wrong, I love the way it looks and feels, but I am attempting to come up with a system for a wash and go style....its mostly GO! (run fast-in the other direction)

I love my HUGE hair....I love my HUGE afro...I LOVE MYSELF!!!!

I know there's more!

So here we go my curly mavens....I am joining you on this amazing journey!!! let's get it!!

Winter Holidays...the END of 2010 is near!

2010-12-28T12:24:00.001-05:00

78Special: The Mixtape is available at www.lindseypapion.com

I have had an absolute adventure this year. I feel like I have been on fast-forward all year. I have learned so much about myself this year its amazing.. I remember January 1, 2010-I was on my knees in my fairly new apartment praying that this would be a GREAT year and wowsers- prayers do come true.

great [greyt] 3. unusual or considerable in degree, power, intensity, etc.:
adjective, -er, -est, adverb, noun, plural greats, ( especially collectively ) great, interjection

Pictured: me blogging from bed-rt now!

Based on definition number 3 of 23 definitions of great, I find 2010 to have fit the description. This year has been quite unusual in its degree of power and the intensity that I feel in loving what I do and deciding to continue to do what I do has been palpable.

This has been an amazing time of very intimate spiritual growth. I trust myself more. I love myself more. I respect myself more. It is a wonderful feeling and it is a lifestyle change. You may look up one day and realize that the few friends that you have are not all capable of rising with you therefore, you must let them go. You may also realize that living the life you truly want is not only right there in front of you, but if you just jump in the pool instead of dipping your toe, you really can SWIM.

I have witnessed others doing things, and I always try to learn from their mistakes. I am always in research mode. I truly love to learn! I love the act of receiving, understanding, and then owning new information. I realize that the only factor that is not considered in researching others is ME! No one else in the universe has my exact combination of smarts, talent, wits, experience, personality, tenacity, sex appeal, love, and spunk that I do.

Hence, no one can do it like I does it! ;)

I know that I am loved. I know there are people in this world then genuinely want me to win. I know that there are times when life seems lonely but I must persevere. I haven't needed as many pep-talks this year as in previous years. I am truly content. I started off saying that 2010 would be my year of bliss.... and folks as I recall this year I have:

received a free computer
received a free car
my first vacation alone to St. Maartin (beautiful)
kissed a stingray in the Cayman Islands (another beautiful vacation)
released my mixtape
designed my own website
directed my first video "Just Breathe"
spent months with my loving mother
finally loved MY own music
LOVING my body
wearing my natural hair in its curly state
really seeing God in everyone
having alone time
going on the road
riding the subway in my underwear
getting 2 more tattoos
painting my nails
discovering my "healing hands"
owning a coffee press
changing lives/inspiring others
counseling artists
living as a FULL TIME musician

2010 has been my year of BLISS!

Happy New year to all who read this and declare your 2011 because it will be a very powerful year for us all!

Wanna learn more about ME? click here

DRUGS(remix)-Lindsey Papion

2010-11-23T16:13:00.000-05:00

Artist:Lindsey Papion

Song:DRUGS(remix)

Album:78Special The MixtapeDrugs(remix)-78Special: The Mixtape

When did you start singing?

2010-10-27T16:04:00.000-04:00

Lindsey answers questions sent in from fans... If you have a question that you would like answered on video email lpapion@gmail.com or twitter/lindseypapion

I wrote a letter to a dear friend(10.25.10) and this is what i wrote...

2010-10-25T13:05:00.003-04:00

1st things FIRST-remember that ALL IS WELL! that should become a mantra for you. repeat that o yourself constantly. believe it or not SAY it and force yourself to believe it.

-ENERGY LEVELS MAGNETIZE TO ITSELF-for whatever reason (you have attracted everything around you) so take a look around you and begin to evaluate what you do and don't want. How do you really feel about a job? How do you really feel about the people in your circle? then, change what you don't like around you.

-START RT WHERE YOU ARE-you must get around like minded people.one of the best thing society has ever done for artists was things like artist co-ops. go to where other designers are. If they are not physically in your area, then youtube their fashion shows on the internet. Youtube videos on sewing, etc. define your peers and then seek them out(even if they are on the net)

-KNOW THYSELF-you mentioned an alkaline diet, etc.. you should begin to do research to determine what is rt for you, but I can tell you to eliminate fluoride! fluoride calcifies your pineal glad(third eye). It is located in brain and all fluoride in the body deposits itself there. *tap water has fluoride. This gland allows you to come up with creative solutions, so an impaired gland impairs your ability to problem solve, and more importantly activate miracles in your life.

-GET INTO THE SUN-we(humans) are people of melanin. melanin is dark matter-the same dark matter that is found in the cosmos. We are activated by the SUN. we have the ability to get (physical)energy directly from the universe and transfer that energy into _______________.

(sentence added for the blog)
LOVE is the TRU answer. LOVE is the way to WIN! LOVE will get you rt where you want to BE!

peace + SUNlight,
Lindsey (master teacher)

JEWELS

2010-10-22T15:39:00.003-04:00

When you give into what appears to you (especially if you don't want that) that is all you are going to get..because you sent that out into the universe; that's what HAS to come back to you.

Mastery of an experience only comes with willingness to see that we have magnetized an experience to us, which will allow us to experience our own divinity...The universe is a mutual support system..Therefore if we are in the experience, then the tools for mastery are also present..

We are all here to support one another. We are all interconnected!

Immaculate Concept=the highest thought that you can have about a situation or an individual
Illusionary Vision=anything not willing to see the perfection of a particular state

anything that you attach yourself to..it will eventually cause you a dis-ease

desire-(de)of (sire)the father

(how & why do you experience a neg. reality)if you are in a situation where you have lowered your frequency and are vibrating at a lower vibratory rate-don't get stuck! everything at the same vibratory rate magnetizes to itself

Get Up, Stand UP!

2010-09-07T19:07:00.003-04:00

As I move through life carving my own path-I am priveledged to learn so much so quickly! I have the distinct pleasure of living my dreams & I have learned to enjoy the JOURNEY.. The latest stop on this journey brings me to a conversation about courage!
COURAGE has become a lost attribute.. Allow me to be more specific:

cour·age /ˈkɜrɪdʒ, ˈkʌr-/ [kur-ij]
–noun
1. the quality of mind or spirit that enables a person to face difficulty, danger, pain, etc., without fear; bravery.
2. Obsolete . the heart as the source of emotion.
—Idiom
3. have the courage of one's convictions, to act in accordance with one's beliefs, esp. in spite of criticism.

I am dedicating this blog to the character trait described above solely. I will NOT spend my energies discussing what courage is NOT. As a matter of fact, I will simply spend the time to encourage anyone who reads this to simply STAND UP for what YOU BELIEVE IN!

Our society is plauged with fear and that can be a very dangerous way of life. It is very toxic to live a life that is inconsistent with your beliefs. Physicians are constantly faced with physical ailments caused by mental/emotional stressors.. I urge you to express yourself in LOVE and move through this life with purpose, compassion and divine health.

(random thoughts that oppose)
1. What about other people's feelings?
Self preservation is the #1 law of the universe. Our own bodies teache us that.

2. Are you suggesting that I treat people "mean"?
Love should be the guiding force in all of your thoughts & deeds. Remember determination/ressolve/definite of purpose my friend, simply means you have a sound mind!

3. Are you telling me to become confrontational?
I am telling you to strengthen the trait that is described(by definition) above in LOVE. In the fear ridden world that we live in, I am almost certain that in doing so-you will be required to confront something or someone.

I wish you PEACE & LIGHT... and here is some encouragement !!!!!

Change

2010-03-22T19:35:00.004-04:00

"Everything must change.." is a great song by the way.. The lyrics are so simple and yet so profound at the same time. Change is sometimes uncomfortable, but it must happen. I am a little strange in that I like change.. I look at it as unknown possibilities..but I hate limbo!

Sometimes limbo is a part of change. You know, when the actual change doesn't come as fast as we would like it to.. So we are waiting on change, or when we have changed but other circumstances haven't changed yet.. LIMBO sucks..

Actually, I am really exposing a character flaw... The truth is; I don't like limbo, because I struggle with having patients. As an only child I didn't really have to wait for someone else to finish playing with a toy so I could play with it. All options, resources, games, etc. was always available and waiting on me to make something happen. I need to learn more about Patients...

How do you deal with change? do you like it? What about limbo? Does it work for you?

Daylight savings time......

2010-03-14T20:32:00.005-04:00

I have been hard at work on a mixtape and I am always reminded why I do what I do.... I was told by a dear friend that I am a "recorder".. I live life, feel the feelings and experience the experiences so I can turn around and record those feelings and experiences for others..

For whatever reason, it is important for us to feel like we are not alone on this journey. When you are in pain-know that I feel pain. When you are embarrassed-know that I have been embarrassed many times before. My music (especially this new project) talks alot about the journey. My latest project 78 Special:The Mix tape deals with pain, anger, self-image,love and a host of other thoughts, ideas and emotions.

As an artist, I live life fully. I am always vulnerable-I MUST BE! I have to be completely open to give + receive love. However, in the pursuit of love in this life, I sometimes receive many other things besides love. Those experiences simply offer wisdom and creative inspiration. Allowing those scenarios to harden me would give them power.

I share my light with the world on purpose! I was created to do so... I must remain vulnerable and sensitive. You see, in the inner-most sensitive place in my spirit is where my POWER lies. To create a hardened shell that prevents me from being vulnerable or sensitive would dim my light. I encourage you to shine brightly and wear your heart (not just on your sleeves) but on your entire outfit- so that your very countenance is LOVE!

As I shine brightly, I pray that I inspire you to enjoy your daylight savings time....

30 Day Bikram Yoga Challenge-day13a

2010-02-03T08:24:00.001-05:00

it snowed today....i must go to yoga-man I am tired!!!!

30 Day Bikram Yoga Challenge-day12

2010-02-03T08:17:00.002-05:00

-woke up at 5am..
-went to morning yoga
-lower back pains from my back spasm from the previous day..
(its gonna snow tomorrow)

30 Day Bikram Yoga Challenge-day 11

2010-02-03T08:13:00.002-05:00

Feb 1st-Day 11

class was tough..i was planning on doing a double but was angry during class for no reason!!
yuck

30 Day Bikram Yoga Challenge-day11 & 12

2010-02-01T17:04:00.001-05:00

SNOWED OUT!

Believe it or not I actually called the studio and they were open... The problem is-the streets weren't!!

When I spoke to the director, she said that safety was first and I could simply do a double to make up for my days missed...

I decided that I wouldn't beat myself up about missing days, and I would just return when the conditions permitted me to do so...

It is funny how life will throw a few curve(snow) balls.. Some people call it a test, others may call it a distraction-I call it LIFE and I love playing the game.. There were actually some un-expected turns in my personal life as well. It is amazing what a little snow can do to people's hearts...

I received a pleasant personal call that turned out to a pleasant snowy two-days. I am feeling very stable and well rested.. If you are a faithful reader of this blog and you have read all of the posts from the start, you will see that "stable" is great! I am an artist and I do not apologize for my feelings..I feel life powerfully and passionately! I have to; it's how I create great songs. As a result, I started this blog determined to be transparent. I find that can be difficult at times, because the real me does not like people prying into my personal affairs. However, this is more than an outlet of my thoughts-this gives other people permission to feel also.

How can I speak on other people's behalf you ask?

Well, I don't-this is what they tell me in private. Many people who read this blog do not comment for several reasons. Some reasons are too personal, while others aren't quite ready to be as transparent as I.. I enjoy those that comment-publicly, privately and silently.

In my heart of hearts, I believe that it is all worth it.

At the end of the day-I write for ME

30 Day Bikram Yoga Challenge-day10

2010-01-28T22:51:00.003-05:00

1/3 of the way there.. I am super excited about how far I have come....

10days of "stick-to-it-ness"

Today's class was strangely short... I remember the first posture and I remember leaving!
Nice!
...Could things be turning around???? (pondering) Hmmmm

30 Day Yoga Challenge-day9b

2010-01-28T18:16:00.002-05:00

NAMASTE
is a common spoken greeting or salutation in South Asia. It has multireligous or else common usage where it may simply mean "Bow to him (God)". The word is derived from Sanskirt namas, to bow, reverential, salutation, astu :Let it be" and te, "to him".

When spoken to another person, it is commonly accompanied by the dlight bow made with hands pressed together, palms touching and fingers pointed upwards, in front of the chest. This gesture, called Anjali mudra, can also be performed wordlessly and carries the same meaning.

30 Day Bikram Yoga Challenge-day9

2010-01-28T17:52:00.002-05:00

Jan 27th was day 9 of the 30 day challenge.. I was super tired that I wasn't able to share until today-day 10.. ( I haven't been to day 10 yoga yet)....

I was really having a hard time in class on day 9.. I was falling asleep in some of the different positions. (I know, strange-rt?!)

Well I was so tired that day 9 went something like this...
Wake up-5:15am
Yoga-6:15am
Teach/Share/Music-9:00am-3:00pm
Sleep-3:30pm-9pm
Meeting-10pm

this was a very exhausting day!!!
When I wake up on day 10, I just don't have it in me to make it to 6:15am yoga....
I am going to the class at the end of today, so I can blog later tonight and tell you all about it..

The truth is..I HAD A CRASH TODAY!

I felt overwhelmed, un-appreciated, under-valued, and misunderstood!

I know my value, I choose to help others, I am very smart + giving! I often times find myself with a need to receive, yet there is no one there to give..
The yoga instructor talks about your body detoxing..our bodies detox physical + emotional impurities.. When you make it past the detox phase the real cleansing begins..

I thank God for placing friends in my life who understand these sorts of things. They help facilitate my growth. I spoke to a friend today and she not only understood but validated my strengths and concerns... Sometimes we all just need someone to listen and understand us..

I usually move around seeking to understand...but today I NEEDED to be understood + right when I crashed-I was UNDERSTOOD....

AGAIN-i received exactly what I needed.. Regardless of how unappreciated, I am.. I am blessed to have genuine spirits in my life(wearing the skin of friends-of course) that UNDERSTAND me..

30 Day Bikram Yoga Challenge-day8

2010-01-26T22:05:00.004-05:00

There were so many interesting things that happened to me today.. Now that I am blogging about this challenge I have realized that I am waay more observant.

I will start with the fact that I was in the hair salon (getting my hair staightened this morning-again)wondering if I would even go to yoga today...
Mid-day, I had a talk with a few of my mentors about "growing a family..."
After eating a philly cheese-steak 1 hr before the last class of the day (again), I began feeling a little sick and started wondering again if I would make it to yoga...

When I walked in the door I told the instructor of my symptoms and she said, "let it go, you did the hardest part by just showing up, so let your goal of the day be to stay in the room." It felt very comforting to hear those words. I was in the very crowded evening class and the teacher would say things like, "in life there is always a second chance, so lets do the second set..." Again, she was reminding me of basic universal principles..

So although this seems like a very random day, I see the synergy in these events.. I have always been leery about being a parent because it seemed like a tough job! But I am realizing that all you have to do is show up.. Showing up is really the hardest part! Furthermore, if you are feeling guilty about not showing up or showing up and not giving your best; then you get a second chance..

How amazing is that?!?!?
All we have to do is show up + we get a second chance!!!

Dude, that is insane, but wonderful all at the same time! I'm not real sure why a lesson so simple was so profound TODAY...

I wish you the strength to show up and I pray that you live another moment to get another chance.

30 Day Bikram Yoga Challenge-day7

2010-01-26T01:05:00.003-05:00

I made it an entire week but it feels like its been an entire lifetime.. Tonight,I went to the 8:00pm class and I remember why I go to the 6:15am class.. The room was EXTRA hot because yoga has been going on all day (and there were like 78million people in class).

In today's class I sat out a few poses due to extreme heat, but I didn't leave the room. Following yoga, I went to a band rehearsal.. I didn't have to worry about warming my voice after spending the previous 90 minutes in (what felt like) Hades.

I will be in the early class tomorrow!!

-sidebar-I gotta get a hair weave..My natural hair is just not feelin hot yoga..

The sweat has my roots in a "downward dog"! (ruff)

Additionally, I promised myself that I would get a reward at the end of every week.. I have been thinking about a reward for myself... I have one in mind, but I have not decided just yet.. completing a week on a Monday is a bit of a kill-joy, but I will honor my prize system and give myself a REWARD.. Don't worry, I will tell you all about it!

NAMASTE

30 day Bikram Yoga challenge-day6

2010-01-24T16:40:00.002-05:00

Today was not so bad... I encountered a teacher that was a bit more strict than others...I found that students were complaining after class about how she was very picky + they got nothing out of class... As I heard them complain in the lobby I thought about what goes on in the class... The entire premise behind Bikram yoga is that just like life everyday will be different.. Sometimes your body will be more flexible than other days... However this complaining seemed very counter productive to me.. It went against every mantra that is repeated in class like, "let it go," or "focus on the breath"... They were focused on the teacher and even after the class they were holding on!

I was reminded of things that I often hold onto...My pet peeve is bad customer service.. Anyone who knows me intimately has probably been embarrassed as I have complained to a manager and asked for information regarding the regional manager, because (yes) I am a letter writer.... Anyway, even in those instances-I Need to LET IT GO!

we all need to survey our lives and just let some things GO!

namaste!

30 day Bikram Yoga Challenge-day5

2010-01-23T19:36:00.003-05:00

The day started with a speaking engagement...I gave a motivational speech to a group of little girls about following their dreams! Their faces were beautiful and their spirits were amazing!

LATER ON...
I completed yoga today without any water....CRAZY! I forgot my water at home + didn't think about it before class started.... Boy was I thirsty!

day 5 done..never in my life have i planned my Saturday around a yoga class...

30 day Bikram Yoga challenge-day4

2010-01-23T08:28:00.003-05:00

FRIDAY=argh!

I woke up a few minutes before the alarm rang out, but I couldn't get my thoughts together.. I was walking around in circles trying to get dressed and out the door...
I just wanted to go to bed!

I left later than I should so I had to speed to the studio and try to get there before they locked the door.. I parked illegally to make it, and I barely made it. The instructor was walking to the door to lock it when I open it..
I was frantic!

My mind was racing! I was consumed with thinking about my parking ticket. I actually layed down through one of the poses..

The heat began to distract me from myself-it wasn't a good class..... I normally shower at the studio because I love their Eucalyptus soap, but I drove home sweaty!

I had a parking ticket!

day4-not so good............................................

30 day Bikram Yoga Challenge-day3

2010-01-21T20:59:00.006-05:00

At 5:05am the alarm went off and strangely enough-I wasn't tired.

I grabbed my bag, flip flops, coat and headed outside...
NO HAIL

I arrived at the studio, and immediately found a great parking spot...
NO CIRCLING

A strange twist of fate, was that I was the first student there! (and the last to leave)
NO RUSHING

I stepped into the room and claimed my spot on the floor
NO EYECANDY

It was a good class.....

Today at 4:00pm I crashed! I slept from 4pm to 8pm...
NO ENERGY!!

*What did I learn today?
I learned what it feels like to calmly arrive somewhere.
I learned that although eyecandy was nice-its completely unnecessary.
Additionally, I learned how to stare at my love handles in a hot room for 90 minutes and LOVE them!

30day Bikram Yoga Challenge-day2

2010-01-20T21:16:00.010-05:00

When the alarm from my blackberry rang.. My first thought was, "What was I thinking?" I know I agreed to this 30 day challenge, but a 6:15 yoga class made perfect sense a week ago... So I sleepwalkingly made my way to my pre-packed yoga bag, slid into my yoga gear grabbed my coat + yes my flip flops.. Why such an extreme shoe choice-you may ask? Well I wear them from my home to the car, then from my car to the studio (and they double as shower shoes)... Amazingly, I pressed on...

Talk about unmotivated to attend this second day of class (at the crack of dawn), as I stepped outside my exposed feet (instantly) began to freeze. In my "comatosed" exit, I didn't realize the weather outside was frightful! Although these frigid conditions were a major deterrent, I pressed on..

Then I walked another 10 feet from my front door it began to HAIL! YES, it was raining ICE! I thought clearly that was a sign to turn around... I was wearing flip flops, with ice falling on my entire body at 5:45am in the dark. I knew everyone involved would understand if I gave up now, BUT; I pressed on...

I arrived to the yoga studio and as time would have it, I could not find a parking space! I circled the city block 3times contemplating driving back to my warm bed. On the 4th round a parking space near the front entrance of the building appeared + you guessed it-I parked.. and then, I pressed on...

At this point the Universe felt a earned/needed/desired a reward for my perseverance, because as I was signing the class roster, in strolls eye candy!

Now, I realize that the entire 90 minutes, I should be focused on the breath, my posture, and being all zen. And I was! Trust me, there is no "looking cute" while imitating a Japanese ham sandwich in a 104 degree room.

However, this morning eye candy was a wonderful 6:15am motivator for day 2! All I have to say is thank you Universe! Strangely enough, I find myself motivated for tomorrow's class :)

THANKS to good ole' eye candy...I pressed on...

Judge, if you must.. I look at it as the carrot placed in front of the horse. For this challenge ladies and gentleman I NEED all the MOTIVATION I can get!

30day Bikram Yoga Challenge-day1

2010-01-19T23:53:00.008-05:00

so today's class was strangely easy... I attended the 8pm class and it was super crowded...If you have ever taken Bikram Yoga also known as "Hot Yoga", you know how your mind travels + wanders during the 90 minutes of pure sweat!!! The funniest thing my mind shared with me tonight was during the standing "head to knee" pose, the teacher says you should look like a Japanese Ham Sandwich...my mind says I look more like a "Soufeast" PorkChop Sandwich.

I am looking forward to the next class... There are 26 total poses, and here they are!

I really love Bikram Yoga, and I think the next 29 days are going to be interesting!

2010 No Pants Metro Ride- DC

2010-01-15T20:29:00.006-05:00

This is my 2010 DC NO PANTS METRO RIDE-costume...

V-log Website Photo Shoot

2010-01-07T14:24:00.002-05:00

the newest member of my family..

2009-09-14T04:38:00.004-04:00

Her birth day was September 13, 2009! Let's all welcome little Lindsey

Haute Video Shoot!

2009-09-14T04:14:00.003-04:00

Well-o-wellio,
Today was day 1 of my video shoot. It wad really exciting + we were able to accomplish so much in such a very short time. It was both thrilling and exciting at the same time. I am super exhausted but still riding high from the experience.
There is something grand about living your purpose. When you do what you love, work just does not =work. It is truly something other-worldly for me. When I am workin creatively-i love it!!!

I encourage you all to do what you love, because then and only THEn will you LOVE what you do!

My new look!

2009-08-24T01:15:00.006-04:00

I have decided to change my hair...yet again...It always funny to hear people's response....Why is it that when some people really don't know what to say-they don't just keep quiet?!?!

eh-well..i am a blondie,auburn,brown head...

My mom has been a Blondie most of my life, so maybe that's my influence....not sure-but i like it (now), so I'll experience it (for now)..

wow, my HS truth...

2009-07-28T22:05:00.005-04:00

i just saw a video from my highschool senior picnic and I remembered how much i hated HS...

Most people do not know this fact. I appeared to be very popular.. I was a cheerleader, in choir(ofcourse), theatre, advanced IB classes...but i was miserable.

I actually graduated 1 year earlier because I really hated it that much.. I was tortured! People would talk about me behind my back and in my face..they would say really mean things as i walked down the hallways..it was tough. As a result i have very few happy HS memories.

In a very strange way it made me stronger and prepared me for my life as an emerging performer..It is sometimes hard to expose yourself through your own music.. It isn't always easy to keep a smile on your face if you are in front of a tough audience.....

well honestly, HS prepared me for alot of those embarrassing moments. i remember being humiliated at my HS fashion show. The entire school was there and they all laughed when the girl in the show put her hand in my face as I made my grand entrance..I was humiliated!

But every time something like that happened, I would go home and my mom wold tell me to "turn the other cheek". She would always encourage me to be the "bigger" person. I guess those lessons stuck..

I try not to carry emotional luggage, because the road i am traveling has so many twists + turns-that luggage would just slow ME down...

i don't say things like thank you to haters because i don't see them as such. i believe everyone has the right to their own opinions-even if they are "anti-lindsey". I protect every one's freedom to express..

so i felt the need to share.....i don't know why i am more comfortable sharing here...but its MY blog-so there it is......

I have posted the video..so as you watch(notice how I am completely isolated. Standing alone was by design-no accident)..http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100000071701054&v=info&viewas=520255293#/video/video.php?v=113764451916&ref=mf

I see you... Have you seen your self lately?

2009-07-21T01:17:00.004-04:00

Right now I am super focused on my goals..can't you tell?! what about you? Remember the "prize" is not the prize.. The prize is the Journey!

gotta get better at posting!!

2009-07-21T00:33:00.003-04:00

wow!! i haven't posted in a long time.. things are going super well.... I hav ehad a few great meetings with some great minds.. People are getting behind my music,and my other creative projects... its kind of crazy... but it is awesome how good people are sent to you...

Living in DC ia a beautiful thing.. ALthought its not my last stop..its a good stop!

Pres.Obama: lindsey
Lindsey: yes Mr. president?
Pres obama: welcome home -again
Lindsey: Thanks Mr. pres, its good to be home!..oh uh-anytime you need me to come back + sing for you again-i would be happy to.....
Pres. Obama: Great, I will keep that in mind!

2009-05-04T23:37:00.003-04:00

life!

Truly

2009-05-04T23:37:00.001-04:00

Wow! I have really been thinking about mistakes that I have made. I'm looking forward to getting things rt this time. I have pain, but no regrets. I love

What a hypocritical day....

2009-05-02T22:02:00.003-04:00

So, I am working on several different projects rt now... I am a little neurotic + the PTSD or Depression or Creative Block or boogie man or(whatever label you wanna give it)had me so dis-interested that in recovery i have to keep irons in the fire-to keep it lit....

in-ee-way,

I had a great girlfriend + fellow "Artist Way" participant text me and tell me how my light shines so bright. She even said she was thankful for that... I was so inspired to hear her say that because we are on two different sides of the country, and I figured it must be a really bright light(you know if SHE could see it).

Then, maybe 20 minutes later- an old friend called from another great distance to tell me how much we are not going to be friends... I was basically told to beat it..

HHHHhhhhMMMMmmmmm.....

So AM I bright? OR Should I beat it??

1 of bestest girfriends JO says, "It all depends on who you ask!"

so let that be comfort for you in your dark times.. When people try to alienate you, and make you feel vexed with their opinions of Y-O-U... Just remember

-don't get upset
-don't eat all the ice cream
-don't spend everything you have on the video game system

just simply...

(in my loudest screaming voice)
ASK SOMEBODY ELSE!!!!!!!!!!!

damanged goods

2009-05-01T14:29:00.002-04:00

I know I am super talented, smart, creative, loving, determined-but sometimes i feel like damaged goods...can anybody relate???? nope? Guess its just me

2009-04-23T19:23:00.001-04:00

Test

2009-02-16T19:31:00.000-05:00

Bad Habits

2009-01-28T23:24:00.002-05:00

Ok, so if anyone in the Cyb world actually reads these, they would know a good deal about my random thoughts. They would also have a small glimpse into my character..
I try to be very transparent in my writings which makes this blog a little difficult..

I want to talk about Bad Habits..
we all have them..but I am not talking about the fact that you may eat a little too much chocolate...
I am talking about those debilitating habits that have the potential to cripple or even take you out of the game!

Only, You know what it is.. Ok, there may be a few select people on the earth that you have opened up to about your issues, but they are still there...

well i have a bad habit..I am not going to share it with you because it is embarrassing. Besides, you probably wouldn't share your either.. I don't want it to take me out. I don't want it to win+ and I don't want to lose much more time because of it..
The problem is: I don't know how to fix/stop it!

any ideas??

New Haircut

2009-01-14T20:37:00.002-05:00

Well it's a new day with a new cut, and a new time!

surround yourself with like minded people

2008-11-03T09:12:00.002-05:00

I am feeling good about who I am- and I am feeling good about where I can go.. Life is great, even when it doesn't seem great!!!

it is good to surround yourself with like minded people. They help you to stay focused!!

Don't get me wrong- you must diversify.. I am just saying that if you are interested in rising to the top you need to hang with eagles-not chickens.. you feel me?

I have people in my life that refuse to settle for less than their personal best, and I need to hang, text, kick it with them more often!!!!

get it?

Ok, it will happen

2008-10-19T16:02:00.002-04:00

Let me first say thank all of you for following + supporting my music career. It has been an interesting road, but it is good to know we are all on it together....

With that said-I promise to post frequently.. Even when I think nothing is going on-I will post..The truth is, there is always something goin on. I am most times a flighty artist who simply forgets to post.. So mark my words you will see more bloga and videos more often..... + thanks again

Lindsey

Lindsey Papion feat. Lil Wayne- "I'm Ill"

2008-07-24T16:58:00.000-04:00

I'm Ill

2008-07-24T16:47:00.003-04:00

NO, no friends and family, I am not sick... I am however ready to be and express as much music as I possibly can.

I sing Opera, Funk, Soul, Acoustic, Jazz, Folk, and Pop (with my little cousins + on road trips with my home-girls)

I also Rap

I Act, Produce, and Direct stage plays and Avante-garde movie shorts

I Write-Song, Jingles, Children's Books and a little Poetry

I make Ceramic Sculptural Vessels, I throw on the potter's wheel, and I make cups using the Soft Slab technique..

Now-How dare anyone put all of that in a box

It can't fit..I won't fit... I will not allow it.....

So the website may be a little all over the place-well so am I...

Enjoy!

look out for lots of changes..

2008-07-18T22:41:00.004-04:00

I am working on some new-very hot music, so please stay posted for the new stuff...

I have received your emails and I thank you all for enjoying my music. I will post more often, I promise.

Take a listen at www.myspace.com/lindseypapion

Peace!

I have a new appreciation for all things STUPID!

2008-04-02T15:34:00.005-04:00

So I am just rolling along focused and concerned about being the best ME that I can be... and-then i encountered a stupid situation...

I like to believe that all creatures here on earth are beautiful!!! As a result,, I will call the situation stupid and not the person...

It was a simple situation that could have been completely avoided, but this person decided to create a huge obstacle. I saw it in front of me, and then a friend of mine said, "if ____ is so stupid, then it should be easy to figure out a way around it ____."

How brilliant-and why didn't I think of that on my own?!?! DARN!!

who's really the stupid one????

ME!

Sen. Barack Obama pics...

2008-03-27T21:10:00.003-04:00

We are both attractive from behind!
very cyoot!!!

Singing for Barack Obama

2008-03-27T21:04:00.003-04:00

Oh say can you see me singing for Sen. Barack Obama?! Well here it is for all to see...

So, what do you think?

My EPIC Experience at the EPICENTER

2008-02-15T01:46:00.004-05:00

If you didn't know anything about the Epicenter, in Houston-you should check it out. I had a life changing experience there..

The people were warm and their hearts are huge! It was truly a powerful experience..

That place is full of modern day superheros!!!

My very 1st Music Video

2008-01-13T01:39:00.000-05:00

Ok, this is what happens with too much time and a creative mind.. I decided to shoot my very 1st music video.. It was really fun, and I challenge you all to film one.

You don't have to be a singer..pick any song-OR 1 of mine :)
www.myspace.com/lindseypapion

and... go for it!

YOu will love it- just like I did!!

When connecting-drop motives

2008-01-02T16:32:00.000-05:00

I was in NYC for the filming of a live TV show "Clash of the Choirs". It was a wonderful experience. I learned so much and met a lot of really great people.. One of the main things that I saw in action was:

When connecting with people, drop all motives. 1st seek friendship & acceptance. Focus on connecting & not extracting.

I was on cloud nine, and I was so interested in just meeting people. I looked for the good in everyone. I spoke to everyone I could, and formed some great relationships. It was an awesome experience!

SO I challenge you all- when you are in a networking environment: seek friendships.. It makes it all -that much more exciting..

Check me out on NBC starting DEC 17th !!!

2007-12-03T17:41:00.000-05:00

I made it!!!!!!!

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If he can Walk on FIRE-What can YOU do?

2007-11-18T21:56:00.000-05:00

On October 3rd, I took a very special trip to Bali, Indonesia. While there I witnessed a "fire dance". I was in the front row(me behind the camera), and I saw with my own eyes-this man really walked on fire.

Apparently, he puts himself in a trance and walks, sits, and dances in real fire without feeling any pain. (I'll say it for you) WOW!

Just imagine what you would do, if you just put your mind to it.....
hmmmm

remember-the world is waiting on YOU!

WOW! Things are looking up

2007-11-15T02:26:00.000-05:00

It is amazing how life, God, the universe works... Things have taken an interesting turn for me. I feels like the beginning of a roller coaster. The whole process works like this:
(Lindsey's roller coaster ANALOGY)

1. you walk toward the coaster and you hear the screams and think, "OMG-this is going to be great!"

2.you stand in that long line (in the heat) and begin to think about turning back to get a frozen lemonade + a funnel cake.

3.as you get close, you see the faces of everyone getting off the ride and (although, there is the occasional woozy face), you think, "WHOA-they had a gooooood time."

4.you are all strapped in and begin to climb the hill.........

STOP!

THAT, is where I am right now.
(thinking)
OMG, should I have done this?
If I didn't get on, I would have waited in that long line for nothing.
Well, there is not turning back now.
Hey, (way down) there is the funnel cake lady.
Here goes nothing.

(SQUEEZE/HOLD MY BREATH)

What's Your Costume??

2007-10-31T02:53:00.001-04:00

I was recruited to be the tooth fairy for this Halloween. I will wear a tutu + crown, and carry a wand. :)

What is your costume this year?

So you think YOU've got it bad... (inspired by Avenue Q)

2007-10-29T01:36:00.000-04:00

Well I just saw Avenue Q last night, which was absolutely, positively, honest, offensive, politically incorrect, democratically biased, and SUPER FUNNY!

Anyway, one of their more popular songs were, "It Sucks to be ME." The melody is so catchy, that you can't help but hum or sing it throughout your day. (Although the law of attraction says never to repeat those words)- it is so cute, I have to catch myself.

Beyond your love for sesame street/ the Muppets/ and cartoon network, there was really alot of material that made me think.

Like- is the Internet for porn?
NO-you are reading my blogs :)

Do I have a purpose?
Of course, my purpose is to help other people reach freedom; my avenue (the arts).

Do I really wish I were in college again?
Honestly, sometimes.. I feel like I could pay rent , and buy cool purses with student loan money-(that's the consumer in me).

My Hair-is only for now/Your job-is only for now/that pain-is only for now, etc (you get the point)

Well it is an awesome production that was very inspiring!

And I must say before I end this lovely hailstorm of mindless chatter:

I miss the Muppets, Sesame Street, Fraggle Rock, and other pseudo live furry creatures!

Anyone agree??? anyone???? is anyone there???????it sucks to be me :(

"A day without a laugh is a wasted day."- Charlie Chaplin

2007-10-23T23:52:00.000-04:00

I can complain all I want, but I have some really good friends! Correction-great friends!! I had a real old friend remind me that I need to write another blog asap.. another friend asked me did I smell the grass or a flower today.. I had a friend call me and ask me did I accomplish my task from my brainstorm session yesterday.. I had a friend pick me up and give me a ride today.. I had another friend walk through the grocery store with me today( I hate the grocery store).. -so, I may have felt crummy this morning, and irritated this afternoon(because I didn't eat anything), but I really do have great people around me... thanks Wes, lee, Dawn, Latreva, and Maco(in order of events/not importance)

well this video upload takes a really long time or my laptop sucks..No-way, my lap top is slammin, so it is obviously the Internet itself-LAME.. What did we do late at night before the Internet. So I have been in the studio and I recorded a few things, what else am I supposed to do? (6M of upload complete) Don't worry I will keep you posted on the progress.

Anyway, what did we do late at night.. Ok, so I am truly showing my age with this next one but: So you remember when TV went off? No you don't! (8M uploaded-i told you it takes forever) Back to Tv going off; YES IT DID(in my sistah girl voice) The national anthem was played and during the anthem they either showed the flag waving or pics of monuments in Washington, DC or military/war type pics. and then FUZZ White noise.. the tv went smooth off...(12M of video uploaded) we were forced to go to sleep.. I mean dag if you were up late enough to watch the tv go off; you felt like it was just TOO LATE.. I felt bad for staying up that late. I felt like, "This is ridiculous. I know I should be in bed." And just like that, I went to sleep..

But not now, the Internet is open 24hrs, so I feel like there is always something to do, or someone to talk to, or something to watch, or read, or listen too. It is sensory overload, so I am always wired.. Get it, wired/Internet...(18M of 19M loaded). you don't have to laugh at my joke, I thought it was clever

why?

2007-09-27T22:36:00.000-04:00

If happy little blue birds fly beyond the rainbow, why, oh why - can't I?

LOVE is the principle thing...

2007-09-25T02:37:00.000-04:00

It is unfortunate that our society doesn't promote love... I was watching some you tube videos of outspoken women who have been in some unfortunate situations. THese women are leaders with followers in the tens of thousands....

I felt bad .. I felt bad for the women and their followers.

It takes alot to be transparent and outspoken. It takes even more to express LOVE.
Why is charisma so often funnelled through negativity?
Charisma rarely promotes LOVE!

As a matter fact, people are often embarassed about sharing loving moments. There is more bravado centered around being "bad ass," than showing LOVE..

We must be cognisent of the messages we are sending through the universe.

be courageous, Be wise, dare to rise from your personal ashes..

be love

I could LIE, but the truth is much cooler!

2007-09-04T16:51:00.000-04:00

Lie: I am 5'9 with legs that are to die for.
Truth: My lil ass is 5'2 with too much personality to contain.

Lie: I maintain a very healthy lifestyle, jogging twice a day.
Truth: HA! I love chocolate shakes, Reese's peanut butter cups, and I maintain anonymity at hot yoga.

Lie: My real hair reaches down to my toes.
Truth: It's none of your damn business.

Lie: I never use foul language.
Truth: SHiiT?!?!

Lie: I am lazy and have never had a REAL job(one that sustains life through decent revenue)$$$$$.
Truth: I have received $$$ as a lifeguard, receptionist at a car dealership, middle school music teacher, microsoft end-user instructor, member of former DC Mayor Anthony Williams prison advisory board, high school cheerleader coach, soft skill instructor with the DC Center for Workforce Development, flipped foreclosed houses, an actress in a major motion picture, song writer, piano teacher, studio engineer, and (many more to mention) last but not least a SINGER...
(so get your lazy ass up and get a REAL JOB!)

Lie: I am a selfish only child who only cares about myself!
Truth: I was blessed to save an elderly man from choking (performed the Heimlich)in a Denny's on Rt.1 in Alexandria, VA. I rescued a drowning child from a pool also in Alexandria, VA in the neighborhood where I lived. This was in my high school years where my selfishness was perceived to be at an all time high.

Lie: Ladies poot..
Truth: My farts are silent but deadly, and they will take you out-son!

Isn't this fun!!

I hear my angels singing

2007-09-04T16:18:00.000-04:00

...I can hear my angels sing, "Lindsey are you ok".. You see they want to talk more, but sometimes I ignore them. I know they are always with me, and sometimes they get frustrated with me-but they never give up on me.

And then reality steps in and interrupts my daydreaming, "maam, can you turn your music down-please."

You see, for me there is a constant battle between reality and what I think I am meant to do/BE.

Damn-what do you do?! Well-you just roll with the punches, and keep fighting. Sometimes I have to say thank God for my ego...My ego is too stubborn to just lose a fight. I can't just get knocked out-story over...
HELL NAW! I'm fighting... Me and all of my five feet and two inches are fully prepared to whip your ass..............................

...........as soon as I get the strength to get up out of bed

trapped in a foreign land.... get me outta here

2007-08-24T11:53:00.000-04:00

I participated in a 3 day alien abduction. There was great information, and I met wonderful people! I also encountered a few folks that were very closed off to diverse ways of living and thinking.

If you have read any of these blogs, you know that I value transparency and freedom...... I felt like I could not breathe for 3 days!!

Please allow me to...........(in through my nose- and out through my mouth.....ahhhhh)

It seemed as if everytime I opened my mouth, I was interperated as being bitter, angry, disrespectful, and any other negative characteristic you throw at the local thug!
I found myself questioning who I am, and then I slapped MYSELF in the face.... (Ok, I really made a few phone calls 2 people that KNOW me)

I was reminded of the cross that you bear when you follow the mantra: To thine own self be true.

when people think you are too this or that-Be true
when people really don't want to hear your opinion-
Be true
when you walk into a room and people are uncomfortable-
Be true

Remeber you are beautifully and wonderfully made in his image and likeness!

Be true to who he created you to be....

Ps- and if you are a little unsure about who or what he created you to be...that's ok too... be true in the discovery of your purpose!!!

Bear with me..

2007-08-18T21:55:00.000-04:00

I know it seems like I take forever to respond to comments, or that I just am super Hollywood and TOO busy. NOPE not the case!

I am just getting used to people actually reading what I have to say. It is very strrrange...

I appreciate the love....

I'm not just groovy-groovy

2007-08-07T00:11:00.000-04:00

MAYNE, i love to get up and dance. Mayne I luv hip-hop... I don't want to just perform gigs where people are sitting down, and snapping their fingers. I want some jamming, top tapping, finger snapping, body rockin-shows..

I guess I gotta make it happen.

Just you wait...

I am not just Groovy-Groovy!

What you gonna do?!?! Are you in or out?

2007-08-06T03:12:00.000-04:00

So either you are going to belive or you are not.
Either you gonna play in the game or sit on the side lines.
Are you going to preach or shut up?
Will you get up or sit your lazy butt on the couch?

Pick one!

Get off the fence.

You can't serve 2 masters....

It's time out for it costs too much, its too far away, I don't know how, who do I talk to, how will I get it done, I don't know anyone who has ever done this, am I good enough, will anyone listen, I don't have the right equipment, I don't have my own office, phone number, fax, computer, secretary, car, house, apartment, room, husband, wife, boyfriend, homegirl, companion, dog, fish, hair weave, etc.

it's time out for ALL of the excuses.... WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO???

I'm in this Wal-Mart Commercial with Beyonce

2007-07-24T04:42:00.000-04:00

I'm in this Wal-MartCommercial.

CHeck it out....

I think I'm happy

2007-07-24T04:02:00.000-04:00

WOW! I have experienced some major life changes.. I've noticed that I mainly write when things are going (not-so-good). I have had an amazing week, and haven't said a word. Yet, it is 3am and I had a so-so day, and voila-here I am typing all my business in the streets..

Am I less inclined to share the good(scratch that) GREAT news??

If so, why?

Why do we talk and talk about the bad stuff, and rarely mention the good? We all know that what you focus on E X P A N D S..

Well, here goes nothing....

I'm talented as hell. I have someone who has shouted their love for me from the rooftops!He is supportive of my talents, and encourages me constantly. I am in love!

(whew)

I'm happy?!?!?!

I know this one is a little abstract, but what do you expect at 3am....

I didn't know people actually read this....

2007-07-17T18:10:00.000-04:00

WOW,
I haven't checked this blog in a while, and I discovered that people actually read my words.. Not that I am about to embark on the biggest ego trip- I am just very flattered that people would actually read....Thank you all!!

Classroom Lesson #1

2007-06-22T09:53:00.000-04:00

Now remember class, sometimes people tell you that you can't do something, based on their inability to do it.

Crying in the middle of the night--Rockstars cry too!!!

2007-06-22T01:23:00.000-04:00

Well my quest for freedom has been a very long journey. The most recent stop on the freedom train was just tonight. You see I was watching a "chick-flick". It is a very over-due borrow from a girlfriend of mine thanks Kimblee 8)
The movie is called "Little Black Book" starring Brittany Murphy. I know I am a little late, but cut me some slack...

N-E-WAYZ

Towards the end of the movie there was a line that mentioned, if you stop trying to plan your life and just live-you might be surprised.. So i began to think about how so many of us plan for ________; you fill in the blank.
(A rainy day, a divorce, being layed-off, kicked out, or promoted, or whatever)
The point is we live our lives in plan mode, and forget to live. I know so many people that work everyday and are miserable.
When do we live?
Trends are teaching us that even when we reach retirement, we still have to pick up a part time gig to supplement... So my goodness..If we are gonna work forever, then why not die working toward what you love?!

Why are we scared of being caught in the rain?? Cause that's not planned or better yet, it's not safe? Society teaches us to be safe..WHAT?Life is spontaneous!

Dictionary.com says:
life –noun
1.
the condition that distinguishes organisms from inorganic objects and dead organisms, being manifested by growth through metabolism, reproduction, and the power of adaptation to environment through changes originating internally.

SO maan you not livin if you tryin to plan everything. Besides, unless you personally hung the stars in the sky, and raise the sun and moon everyday-then you are not that dope. I mean -no real shot to your ego, but uh-hmm there is someone/something that is a little hotter than you..

Anyway-I'm writing to tell you that in the middle of the night I began to cry, weep, sobb(sniffles, panting, etc). I cried for my freedom. I will DIE trying to obtain and maintain FREEDOM!

Seeing the L I G H T

2007-06-19T13:44:00.000-04:00

I had a show a few nights ago, and I was able to see the light. It seems as if life is clearer when I am on stage. Nothing is as complicated as it seems. Anger doesn't "really" exist when I'm on stage. Depression is a strange word from an underground foreign language, when I am on stage. I see the light. I need to spend as much time on stage as I possibly can...."The whole world is a stage," is what I'm reminded of.....

I guess what I am really saying is that I need to create my real life so that it functions like my stage life...NO-that doesn't make any sense. What I need to do is keep pursuing my passion, because when I am knee deep in creating/performing music...nuthing else matters..

I see the light!

massage (ooooh-ahhh)

2007-06-07T03:02:00.000-04:00

So I had an incredible mass(ah)ge today. I think I will be sore for a while. It was as if every tense spot identified itself to my masseuse-although they never revealed themselves to me. It is a little strange ya know. It is odd to walk around with tension or negative energy and not even know it.

So I started thinking about that. How often do we walk around coping with the pain? We do it so much so that we don't even notice it any longer. WE have learned to accept a lifestyle that comes with built in hurt....

You see during my massage there were these very painful moments. Moments when I was uncomfortable and even felt a little light headed. But you see right when I was going to cry uncle, my masseuse released the pressure a little and all the tension went away. In that instance I felt like it was unbearable, yet I pushed past that painful point to get to my release..

We run away from discomfort, when sometimes our release comes when we run smack into it.. I had far more tension in my body than I realized. So much so, that we had to stop at 1 hour and didn't complete my entire body.

You know all of the unknown axillary stress causes disease. The body is dis-eased!

Well, I spoke with my mom tonight and learned that a distant relative died from lung cancer. I wonder if cancer is what was being released from my body during those moments of discomfort?!?!?!

Trend-setting Depression

2007-05-25T01:21:00.000-04:00

You know, a friend of mine told me that I am a leader and a trend- setter. The truth is-I avoid trends at all costs..I do what I feel..The scary part is that depression has me feeling uh-nuthin.... When I do feel, its anger, sadness, etc. Now as an artist you would think depression could act as my muse.

Hell no!

If I have no motivation to get out of the bed, what makes you think I will compose a song, record vocals, and put music to it..

The soundtrack of my life right now would be the sounds of a didgeridoo.

Definition: The didgeridoo (or didjeridu) is a wind instrument of the Indigenous Australians of northern Australia.

Fun

2007-05-09T11:22:00.000-04:00

I want to have fun again!

I remember when getting dressed to go to my highschool football games were fun.
The anticipation of the first day of school was fun.
Hanging out in the mall for hours was fun.
Sledding down a hill on my flexible flyer was fun.
School trips were fun.
Having breakfast with my mom (waiting on the omlete man) was fun.
Waterparks will always be fun.

When did fun get to be so complicated? At what age does fun expire/retire?

thoughts from a former slave- to other peoples opinions..

2007-05-09T11:13:00.000-04:00

I have allowed so many negative words to my confidence.
I had always tried to give the perfect stage performance... When people make suggestions regarding my performance-I thought humility was accepting all of their ideas. WRONG!
When I am able to be me, on that stage; it is then that I am free to affect the lives of people around me..

My First, My Declaration

2007-05-04T00:07:00.000-04:00

Well thanks to my good friend Tam, Ive decided to blog. I was so inspired by her shared thoughts that...well- you get the picture. I suddenly feel shy, when everyone knows that's NOT my M.O.

My Blog declaration to you, is that I plan to be honest and transparent. That was the sole purpose of this blog: To spread truth; even if it is mine.

Peace,
Hollywood P